i can't wait for next year.
when i go to a jc.
i can't wait to start life
"all over again".
it'll be a new environment.
CHANGES!
i love changes!
all the new friends that i'll be making.
way cool stuff.
i'm really sorry but i really need to avoid you at least for now. i don't know if this will go on forever but, i have to do this. i can't talk to you as before, nice and comfortable, which is really sad. i wish to, but it's impossible. it's not you, it's me. i just can't do it. i'm sorry. i really treasured our friendship though.
i seem like a huge problematic kid now. i was so happy before i came online actually, cos everything's been going pretty well and stuff. but i had a sudden urge to blog, but i had no entries in my mind at all. then i started thinking, deep into stuff. which is why i hate being free! cos it leaves me time to think. which makes me confused and sometimes depressed. like "why's life like that? why is he/she doing this to me? what in the world is going on?"
i think one thing my friends should really know about me, in case they still don't know. i'm really not a person who likes to share my problems with everyone. come to think of it, i don't have a single friend that i trust to share my problems with, apart from God of course. which is why cell leading gets a little hard at times, cos it requires me to be open with myself, which really sucks!
oh man, i better leave this place and got sleep or sth cos all this deep thinking is making me utterly depressed. but actually, all this thinking makes me wake up to the harsh reality.
Westlife
Seasons In The Sun
Goodbye to you my trusted friend
We've known each other since we were nine or ten
Together we've climbed hills and trees
Learned of love and ABC's
Skinned our hearts and skinned our knees
Goodbye my friend it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that spring is in the air
Pretty girls are everywhere
Think of me and I'll be there
We had joy we had fun we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just seasons out of time
Goodbye Papa please pray for me
I was the black sheep of the family
You tried to teach me right from wrong
Too much wine and too much song
Wonder how I got along
Goodbye papa it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
Little children everywhere
When you see them I'll be there
We had joy we had fun we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone
We had joy we had fun we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone
Goodbye Michelle my little one
You gave me love and helped me find the sun
And every time that I was down
You would always come around
And get my feet back on the ground
Goodbye Michelle it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
With the flowers everywhere
I wish that we could both be there
We had joy we had fun we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just seasons out of time
We had joy we had fun we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone
We had joy we had fun we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just seasons out of time
We had joy we had fun we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone
don't ask me why i posted this absolutely random song all of a sudden.
queenie's bringing westlife back into my life.
their songs just keep getting stuck into my head or coming to my mind.
like this one, it just came into my mind while i was typing paragraphs here.
oh man, my homophobic genes are acting up again!
since i'm on the topic of phobias, i decided to look up a whole list of phobias from A-Z to see how sissy i am actually. http://www.phobialist.com/ i'm going to look through from A-Z (i hope!) and i'll list all my phobias here.
1) Acrophobia/ Altophobia/ Hypsiphobia- Fear of heights
2) Aeroacrophobia- Fear of open high places.
3) Bathophobia- Fear of depth.
4) Batrachophobia- Fear of amphibians, such as frogs, newts, salamanders, etc.
5) Bufonophobia- Fear of toads
6) Herpetophobia- Fear of reptiles or creepy, crawly things.
7) Homophobia- Fear of sameness, monotony or of homosexuality or of becoming homosexual
i've SEVEN fears! sissy me :(
and here are some totally crazy phobias:
1) Arachibutyrophobia- Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth. (like WHAT!)
2) Bolshephobia- Fear of Bolsheviks. (huh?)
3) Barophobia- Fear of gravity. (poor guy)
4) Caligynephobia- Fear of beautiful women.
5) Cathisophobia- Fear of sitting. (then stand all your life?)
6) Consecotaleophobia- Fear of chopsticks (then you musn't be chinese)
7) Dextrophobia- Fear of objects at the right side of the body. (this is just a big HAHA!)
8) Euphobia- Fear of hearing good news. (saddistic!)
9) Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia- Fear of long words. (irony huh?)
10) Lachanophobia- Fear of vegetables (sounds like nah!)
11) Panophobia or Pantophobia- Fear of everything. (poor guy!)
12) Phobophobia- Fear of phobias. (poorer guy!)
and i realised that xxian's Bathmophobia/ Climacophobia- Fear of stairs or steep slopes!
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Great is the Lord, God Almighty!
