i'm dreading this saturday so much. please don't ask me to speak to a crowd of hundreds. i'll get goosebumps, butterflies in my stomach and whats ever. i just don't have the guts to do that. i'll shake like crazy, like i'm having fits. i'll feel so cold that even ten sweaters won't help me much. i'll tremble and my lips would just be pale. i can't do it. you can ask me to dance on stage, but i can't hold a mike and speak. hearing my own voice over the sound systems would already be terrible enough. and my voice just sounds horrid, distorted. ARGH! i know there'll be people supporting me from behind but that adds on so much more to the pressure. i don't want to disappoint all this people. thinking about it now, my stomach's churning so badly and i already feel like puking. AND IT'S NOT EVEN SATURDAY!
but i was just thinking. out of so many people, God actually set me apart and made me do this. so i believe it's for a very special purpose :)
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Great is the Lord, God Almighty!
