yes yes. i'm still alive... thankfully. i just survived the worst day of my life today. i'm so glad it's all over. in the morning right until chinese period was over i was stressing myself away memorising all the poems for mo xie cos i didn't have time to yesterday. i had a big feeling that i'll really do very badly so i was all stressed up and i was just cooped up in my little corner cramming meaningless chinese words into my brain. i didn't even want to talk to anyone and i think i said less than 10 lines the whole morning which is really unusual. and i know myself that i can't memorise fast and well when i'm stressed and the result was finally reflected on my mo xie. it was horrible. what i could remember before could not be remembered during my mo xie. i'm so gonna fail the whole thing. and it's like so easy to score kinda thing. i just felt so depressed and all. i missed out lines and lines of words. then after, i received my progress report. what should i say. amaths pulled my grades way way down. i can't even enter JC with this kinda score. for now i'm just trying to comfort myself that it's only the first term of sec3. i just have to study even harder in the next few terms and everything should fall back into place. BUT! there must be so much holiday homework happily piling up and i've 4 group projects to do! not counting the chinese nursery rhyme thing. how do i enjoy my holidays with so much work waiting for me to touch? i rather not have a holiday seriously. i think the work load would be much lesser. and then after that came the irritating and irritating and really irritating 4X400m results. 3e6 got second! yeah! so not expected. we lost 3e3 by 1 MILLISECOND! yes yes. i could just bang my head against the wall. BANG!!! it so didn't hurt. i really didn't believe that we ran so well but losing by 1 millisecond is total crap. if i knew i should have ran 1 millisecond to tie and 2 milliseconds to win. argh. oh well, sports day's the ultimate. this is the first year that i'm actually running during sports day so i'm kind of excited. haha. hope we do well.
anyway, my whole worst day of my life thing was smoothen out by the praye rmeeting just now. the worship really touched my heart and i just felt God telling me to take things slow but most importantly focus on Him. what i'm really weak at is managing my time. whenever i get too stressed out with school and all, i always seem to think that studies is more important and i neglect God which is so wrong. i realised that i shouldn't neglect God no matter how busy i am but should instead continue to seek after Him cos he'll make a way for me.
God will make a way,
Where there seems to be no way.
He works in ways we cannot see,
He will make a way for me.
He will be my guide,
Hold me closely to his side.
With love and strength for each new day,
He will make a way,
He will make a way.
I love maomao! She's like so cute and cheeky and all. Her letters and notes are always so sweet and comforting. and she always seems to have alot to thank me in her notes. haha. chin yixiu rocks! thanks for the encouragement girl =) nahnah! i love you loads! just felt like saying this cos you've been such a sweet friend to me. why am i writing all this? through circumstances in life, you'll get to know wou'll get to know who are your REAL and TRUE friends who'll stand by you and support you all the way. and i know there are many such people around me other than this 3 just that i don't have the time to mention them all. so.. a big shoutout to all my TRUE friends! thanks for being there for me when i needed you!
synergiz ! synergiz ! synergiz ! synergiz !
i'm kinda excited for cheerleading. even though 3e6's so not prepared, but i'm sure it'll turn out fine. right cheerleaders? just don't make me do more shake butt stuff. i hate it. argh.
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