am i a faker? i really don't know. this thing just suddenly came into my mind. i'm suddenly in search of my true character. i don't know what i'm truly like. am i just being what i am to impress or just to make someone happy? or am i being what i am because it is what i am. i don't know. i really don't know... i'm in search of myself. what i'm really like. what lies beneath the skin of amanda. i really hate to be free. i rather be stressed up my head. whenever i'm free, i happen to always get more depressed because i have the time to look into stuff that i won't even think about when i'm busy. and now that all i have is time, i'm starting to reflect and think about alot of stuff. its not a very good thing actually..
God..i need you. i really do.
i suddenly feel like talking to you. why aren't you here?
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Great is the Lord, God Almighty!